I am entitled to miracles/Let miracles replace all grievances.
When I was 25 years old my life did not seem great.
My long-term relationship had just ended. I hated my job. I didn’t have a tribe. Even the furnace wanted out & kicked the bucket in my new condo.
Life did not seem miraculous.
What I did to cope was drink too much. Party too hard. Ride on motorcycles going waaaaay too fast. I simply didn’t care anymore. My reverence for life was at an all-time low. I was straight-up p##sed at life and I didn’t care who knew it.
I had a lot of the grievances Lesson 89 talks about with life. And I didn’t see a way out.
Sloooowly things began to change. I attended a class about being a librarian. And even though I didn’t have all of the requirements-I was somehow able to attend grad school.
I began dating someone new. Someone with spiritual gifts that turned out to be very closely aligned with my own. And this wasn’t even on my bucket list of attributes at the time.
I met some peeps that ended up being life-long friends. The kind of people I know I can call at any time to lift me up.
What am I saying? There is a story you are born to live dear friends. A miracle you were born to express. I couldn't see the miracles when I was immersed in the grievances. So if it feels bleak right now. If you are going through a time of heartache or discouragement. Know that there is a miracle, as Lesson 89 assures, waiting for you behind the darkness. A space that offers you a gift from even the toughest of times.
The trick is to feel beyond the moment. To see with eyes of the Divine. And when that is too difficult, we can remind ourselves:
Behind this is a miracle to which I am entitled.
All is impermanent, even heartache. And the Divine is waiting, with the miracle for your life. Beyond what you can imagine.
In hope and wonder my Dear friends. Namaste